Inner Awareness

Mystical encounters with Christ


Part I

About a year ago, I received a text message from Merly Tabujara, a schoolteacher and a highly developed natural psychic and visionary from Silay City, Negros Occidental, who has been a longtime reader of my columns and books, but whom I met personally only once in Manila.

The text message said: “Good morning, Sir, I just saw an image of Christ behind you, the image of Christ the King stretching His hands upward…and another image of Him, his left hand on His heart and the right hand formed a sign of peace.”

I told her that was not the first time somebody saw Christ with me or in me, but I completely ignored such visions as purely imaginary and have no objective meaning.

But for some reason, I did not and could not erase that message from my cell phone’s inbox. Every now and then, I would see Merly’s text when I reviewed my messages, but I still gave it no more than ordinary attention. For one thing, I am not particularly a religious man and I even tended to doubt the historical existence of Jesus Christ. In fact, I had actually written in my column that no contemporary historian during Jesus’ time ever acknowledged or witnessed that he existed. All references to Jesus by such early historians as Josephus and Tacitus mentioned Jesus only as quoted by his Christian followers but no eyewitness report from independent non-Christian sources. So how can a nonexistent entity be in me?

As days and weeks passed, I began thinking if I really had any connection, either psychic or mystical, with the Christ personality. In my conscious mind, he does not hold as much of an appeal to me as Mary Magdalene does, especially in recent years. I read almost all major literature about the Magdalene, including the Gnostic Gospels found in Nag Hammadi, Upper Egypt, in 1945. In one of these gospels, the Gospel of Philip for example, it was very clear that Jesus and Magdalene had a very intimate relationship. Clearly, they were lovers. And I saw nothing wrong with that. Why shouldn’t a very human Jesus fall in love with another lovely human being? But that’s another story.

One day, while in deep thought, it suddenly struck me like a bolt of lightning striking the anti-Christian Roman soldier Saul, that what Merly texted me was not the first time somebody supposedly saw Jesus Christ in me or enter me. My memory went back to 1990s at the apartment of Boy Roa, a former talent scout and promoter, who allowed a mysterious 92-year-old spiritual woman, named Apo Ina, to stay in his place because she had nowhere else to go. She had no known relatives and no one really knew where she came from. She apparently had powers to heal and to read people psychically.

The first thing that greeted a visitor in Apo Ina’s place were the different statues of many religious figures, like Jesus Christ, the Blessed Virgin Mother, St. Joseph, St. Michael the Archangel, various Christian saints and the ever-present Sto. Niño.

Being very sensitive to vibrations, I found the energy in front of those statues very strong indeed. Many stories of miraculous events happening in that place began to spread, especially after I had written an article about it in Mr. and Mrs. Magazine. Filipino and foreign friends I brought to the place all experienced the strong energy there. Where the energy was coming from, I couldn’t tell.

One day, I was invited to witness the materialization of thousands of Communion hosts scattered all over the statues and on the floor and something strange happened to me. This is how I described the incident in my book “True Encounters with the Unknown” (Published in 2000 by Anvil Publishing).

“As soon as I arrived, I felt the energy in front of the altar to be very strong. I started taking pictures of the scattered hosts with my small camera. Then I called out to Boy and said, ‘It’s very strong.’ As soon as I said that, I fell into a trance and collapsed on the floor in front of the altar.

“Apo Ina started praying aloud asking the invisible divine beings to bring my spirit back to my body. Somebody tried to lift my body and place me on a chair, but he could not lift me. ‘He’s too heavy,’ he complained. Somebody said, ‘Let him lie down, just get a pillow and place it under his head.’ This was what they did.

“As I lay for some minutes on the floor, Apo Ina started singing a message, something about my mission. Her singing was effortless and inspired, and I know the words were directed to me.

“Shortly afterward, my right hand slowly began moving up and my fingers formed a mudra or posture of the hand of the resurrected Christ, then it gave a blessing to the people present. My left hand began to move too and both hands formed a position as though receiving something. Both my palms were up. Then both hands closed and opened again.

“The motions of my hands were very slow. Somebody said the Resurrected Christ was inside me. With eyes closed, I was aware of what was happening but had no control over my body.

“After Apo Ina had stopped saying the message aloud, I slowly opened my eyes. I saw there were more people behind me than when I got there.

“Apo Ina said she saw my two palms bore fresh wounds with blood. Another witness, an elderly woman named Lola Ampi, excitedly said she saw the same thing. ‘Your hand radiated a very bright light and I saw a hole on each palm, like a wound. When you pointed your hand to me, I felt a strong energy. It went to my chest and cleared my breathing.’

“Another woman, Cecilia Flores-Oebanda, said she saw me enveloped in a white mist. She felt weak and almost collapsed. Even after I opened my eyes and was out of trance, she said she was still feeling weak as she related the incredible story.

“I, on the other hand, felt nothing extraordinary or different about my hands. Neither did my wife nor Boy Roa see anything extraordinary. Whatever they saw was certainly not physical in nature (or perhaps could be seen only through clairvoyant vision). But whenever I meditated after that, I could feel a very strong tingling sensation on both palms.”

That incident was soon forgotten by me and I never thought or spoke about it to anybody. Apo Ina said I could heal, but I never considered myself a healer.

Next Week: Mystical Encounters with Christ, Part II

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  • JX Peron


    Waiting for those highly opinionated “commenters”….


    • Nick_Fury

       Ayan na yung hinahantay mong “highly opinionated commeters” sa taas mo. O saan ka ngayon natatawa?

  • tekateka

    Jesus Christ did not exist.. it has already been concisely explained here…

    Youtube this:
    Religion The Greatest Story Ever Sold

    • jin2012

      To the atheist.

      Proof  of  God  is  in  prophecy.
      If the Bible were myth, why then are there so many archaeological artifacts from the historical accounts found in the Bible? (ref: en . wikipedia . org/wiki/List_of_artifacts_significant_to_the_Bible)

      There are 2000 prophecies out of 2500 that have already been fulfilled.  Some of them in the last 100 years.  

      Here is -one prophecy to note (Matthew 24) that is already about half fulfilled:
      The  Roman  Catholic  Church  banned, burned Bibles and the Believers who read it or had a copy for 600 years (~1200s to 1800s), and used an army to murder 50-100 million people in its ~2000 year history. Despite all that power, the Bible did spread, and today it is estimated that 7.5 billion Bibles have been printed since 1816 and are in circulation in 2370 languages.  100 million are being sold per year, not including electronic copies. Compare it with the prophecy below written  ~2000 years ago:

      Matthew  24 (Jesus speaks)
      “14 And this gospel of the kingdom will be preached in the whole world as a testimony to all nations, and then the end will come.”

      Tell me how “any  man” can make 2000  prophecies come true across 6000 years of Biblical history?

      The Book of Isaiah  was written in ~700BC.  The oldest  copy mankind has is dated ~300-120BC thanks to the Dead Sea Scrolls.

      9:6-7 [born as a human male]
      7:14 [born of a virgin]
      37:31 [from the House of Judah]
      11:1-10 [from the root and stump of Jesse]
      16:5 [from the House of David]
      9:1-2 [from Nazareth of Galilee]
      49:6, 42:1-6 [mission included the Gentiles]
      29:18, 35:5-6 [ministry included miraculous healings]
      61:1-2 [ministry would deliver spiritual captives]
      53:3 [despised and rejected by men]
      49:7 [hated without cause]

      So what are the  mathematical odds  of ALL that (and more) coming true at the right time and place in ONE man?

      In fact you just helped make the prophecies in Isaiah 53:3 and 49:7 come true.

      Next the atheist says,  even Christ never existed.  

      The Sanhedrin executed Jesus.  He is recorded in the Talmud.  Sanhedrin 43a – “Eve of Passover, Yeshua was hanged etc..”  The Talmud also refers to 5 disciples of Christ, it states how old he was when he died, and how the Romans got involved.

      So the question to the atheist is:
      Why would the Sanhedrin document a “mythical” enemy?
      That’s like saying the CIA is documenting mythical enemies rather than real terrorists.

      Thallus wrote about the execution of Jesus, his writings date up to 52AD.

      Flavius Josephus, a member of the Pharisees and court historian to Emperor Vespasian made references to Pilate, Caiphas, Jesus, James – brother of Jesus.  So why would he risk the ire of the emperor in reporting several mythical figures?

      Artifacts (physical evidence):  There is Pilate’s Stone, the Ossuary of James that states:  James – Son of Joseph, Brother of Jesus. There is also the Ossuary of Caiphas, where his body was found including coins dated to 42AD.  

      Tacitus wrote about the burning of Jerusalem by the Romans in 70AD.

      Jesus prophesied about the destruction of Jerusalem in Matthew 24.
      Myths do not prophecy. Matthew was written in 41AD. Jerusalem was destroyed in 70AD by Rome.

      Reader’s Digest, Encyclopedia Brittanica lists Christ as FACT.
      Even Einstein believed Jesus Christ existed.

      Finally, a question to the atheist,
      name me just one movement in history that has 100,000 followers and has survived for at least 300 years without a real leader.

      • tekateka


      • GKLer

        Evidence of a GLOBAL FLOOD of biblical proportions:
        300 cultures have stories of a massive flood wiping out all life on earth. Science needs to disprove them all before making a claim. Evolutionists and atheists never looked at the evidence:
        1. Therefore: we need to look for layers of mud/sand/deposits, evidence for massive and rapid erosion by water, significant salinity changes, layers of many dead (fossil/bones/remains) creatures, plants, trees etc…Here:
        2. In the Gulf of Mexico, sample cores are numerous (due to oil and oceanographic exploration). Each inch of core repesent 1000 years. At some point in the core sample, it will show a MASSIVE change in salinity by 10%!!! (due to fresh water rushing into the gulf).
        3. In the Black Sea, core samples taken will show that it used to be smaller. You will find a uniform sedimentary layer that could only have been deposited from a flood. In that layer you will find saltwater marine fossils. The Black Sea used to be a fresh water lake, today it is brackish. A uniform layer could not have been formed over a long period of time, it can only be formed with a massive pouring in of water (think 3,000,000 gallons per second).
        4. In the Grand Canyon which has 2 billion years of geological history would cover the flood in its layers. It is 800m above sea level!! You will find marine fossils in the Redwall layer (lime sand) deposited in a very rapid devastating manner.
        5. You will find evidence of massive kills across the globe: in Zucheng, China, 7000+ fossils were found in a 300 meter pit. In Nova Scotia you will find a forrest of fossilized upright trees 20-40ft long with missing roots at the 2500ft strata. In Dijon-Lyons there is a cave of bones of lots of animals – bears, lions, deer, horses, wolves, ox. There is no evidence they were “hunted” or “eaten”. Explanation: rising waters caused them to group together, and die together. Globally you will not find fossils in the right strata order, somehow the strata has been altered by several meters.
        6. The Swiss Alps, Sierras, Himalayas – highest peaks on earth – we find fossilized shellfish and marine fossils.
        7. Rock layers (deposited sediment) when traced, cover entire continents and vast areas. The Redwall and Tapeats layer of the Grand Canyon is traceable across North America to Europe. The Coconino layer has about 10000cu-miles of sand deposited by water rapidly, rather than slowly – this sand is traceable from southern USA to Canada. Chalk layer of UK is traceable up to the Middle East.
        8. There is evidence of rapid massive erosion between rock layers, and evidence of NO erosion at all. So what could cause rapid massive erosion? – Lots of water.
        9. Rock layers do not bend due to hardness and brittleness, but in the Grand Canyon, you will find evidence it was wet and caused the Tapeats layer to bend, fold before it dried. Think wave-like patterns – you can look at the pictures somewhere.
        10. Evolutionists claim slow and gradual sand deposits. Geologists (real scientists) will not agree.
        11. Mt. St. Helens – they found a 1/10 version of the Grand Canyon 200 ft deep showing the similar evidence of rapid and massive erosion from WATER.
        12. Since I love whales, that’s right, they found an 80ft whale fossil, vertically positioned!! in a diatomaceous rock quarry (ref: Dicalite Grefco). Fossilize whales have also been found 500 ft above sea level in Canada, USA.
        13. Next, ask why are there mass kills of FROZEN IN ICE(and in very good condition) mammoths in large numbers in Russia, Alaska, Europe. If someone was looking for a reason why the “ice age” happened, the flood provides two things to fit: snow and lower temperatures from all the water. I mean where else could you possibly get enough water to make sheets of ice 2 miles thick?? 
        14. Evidence is all around the earth, some people just don’t look for it or turn a blind eye to it. Instead, they make a lazy statement without looking at evidence on hand: “bible daw is fantasy”.15.  The pseudo sciences:  Alchemy, Astrology, Evolution.

      • tekateka

        You are  Delusional… don’t you believe that every organ in your body comes from STARDUST?

      • jin2012

        Seems people from thousands of years ago, already knew that.

        Genesis 2:7The LORD God formed the man from the DUST of the ground and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life, and the man became a living being.

      • tekateka

        Yeah… and earth is 4.5 billion years old… not 6,000 years old…

      • GKLer

        Where you there 4.5 billion years ago?  People don’t even know who  really was Jack the Ripper neither can they predict the weather 2 weeks   from now, and you think people are smart enough to know what it was like 10000+++ years ago or in the future???  You have a lot of faith in people it seems.  People you don’t even know.

    • GKLer

      Tekateka believes nature created us.
      So who created such a complex machine called nature?

      It took 13 years using super computers to map 25,000 genes and 3 billion chemical base pairs that make up human DNA.  All that complexity is by accident?  Somehow, the slime pits you think you came from managed to create something that complex by accident? 

      I’ll give you 3 billion LEGOs, lets see if you can accidentally create 25000 parts that makeup something complex by throwing them in the air for 10 billion years…oh but wait…you were the “intelligent” being behind the “throwing them”…so we can’t do that.


      Evolution 101:Single atom iron based life forms evolved into my Honda (which has 25,000 parts) after zillions of years, all on their own….

      ….and somehow it even started when I turned the key.   

      Evolution as an equation:  Everything = Nothing + Lots of Time + Accident = STUPIDITY

      It requires more faith to believe in Evolution than to believe in God.  That’s how illogical Evolution is.

      Evolution is a pseudo science,just like alchemy, astrology.  Darwin failed in science 101:  observation.  He compared his own children to dogs, and likely his mother, mother-in-law and his wife to an ape he met.  Despite his attempts in becoming a real scientist, he actually believed in God. 

      So tell me how “Lucy” even looks like Ms. Lin Ketong? 

      All those ape-like drawings you see that have skin instead of fur, and the cave-man haircut are ALL ARTISTS’ INTERPRETATIONS based on a few teeth, partial skulls.  None of them left behind a self portrait.

      We are not as gullible as you who believe in Evolution.

      • tekateka

         YES, NATURE CREATED US… PERIOD… everything else is Baloney!

      • GKLer

        So who created nature?  Answer me that.
        Let’s take photosynthesis. You think photosynthesis is a simple thing?  I’ll summarize it for you in case you didn’t learn it in grade 4.

        Energy/sunlight + CO2 + H2O —> sugar/starch/food + O2.

        Now, do you think the Empire State building can be built by accident?

        How about the “heart”? Do you know that even today, no man made/artificial heart or mechanical pump can last as long as the real thing (a biological heart)? It’s an engineering marvel, but I am certain, you are no engineer. Because any engineer would know, behind anything super complex, comes a complex design. Behind that design, is a designer.

      • tekateka

         So who do you think created Everything in this MultiVerse? 99% of the most genius scientists including Einstein does not believe in a powerful being responsible for creation… it is Nature.. and the power of ZERO….

      • jin2012

        0 + 0 = 0  It’s basic math, language of the universe.

        Even the so-called “genius” Einstein didn’t know the date when Christ was to be born. But it was already written in prophecy hundreds of years earlier, that’s why some of the Jews knew their messiah was coming soon.

        Daniel 9 (a prophecy indicating when the Messiah would come, written in 536BC)

        25 “Know and understand this: From the time the word goes out to restore and rebuild Jerusalem until the Anointed One,[f] the ruler, comes, there will be seven ‘sevens,’ and sixty-two ‘sevens.’ It will be rebuilt with streets and a trench, but in times of trouble. 26 After the sixty-two ‘sevens,’ the Anointed One will be put to death and will have nothing.[g] The people of the ruler who will come will destroy the city and the sanctuary. The end will come like a flood: War will continue until the end, and desolations have been decreed.

      • tekateka

        Brad, kwentong kutsero lang yan… komiks kumbaga.. lahat yan e, fiction and fantasy… written by good authors and they become urban legends.. just like tikbalang, manananggal, kapre… gang ngayon… marami pa rin ang naniniwala… If you study Recorded History Facts.. wala lahat yan… of course lahat ng mga calamity na binanggit mo is random.. it can happen anytime anywhere in this world…

      • jin2012

        If the Bible were myth, why then are there so many archaeological artifacts from the -historical- accounts found in the Bible? (ref: en . wikipedia . org/wiki/List_of_artifacts_significant_to_the_Bible)

        artifacts = physical evidence

  • jane

    sus! all those evidences you give refers to brothers/sisters of Jesus but there’s no direct evidence of his own existence. yung first hand account talaga– as in documentation noong time nya at hindi yung mga kwentong barbero galing sa mga disipulo.. ur not even sure na totoo yung mga pangyayari na yun. hindi na pwedeng i-verify eh.

    • GKLer

      You have no evidence that the non-biblical ancient historical writers (thallus, tacitus, josephus, etc) had no first hand accounts.  Do you think they didn’t know how to do their jobs?  The fact their work survives today is a testament of their work.  If Jesus is mythical, why did they bother to write about an enemy?  Answer me that.

      The disciple John lived up to 100AD, if he did, so did countless others. Read the comment from Jin2012 below, and learn something today.

      • tekateka

         OKAY OKAY… DISIPULO AKO NI BATMAN, IRON MAN, SPONGEBOB, etc…. Daming Baliw sa Relihiyon.. Lahat yan PEKE!!!..

      • GKLer

        I can see, you have no skill in discourse, so I am just wasting my time with you.  Have a nice life.  Message has been delivered to you.

      • tekateka

        Sir or Madam, wake up.. Religion is Fake.. all stories are fake.. gumising ka na at ang mga disipulo mo..

        my explanation is here:

        youtube mo:
        Religion, the greatest story ever sold:


        Curiosity with Stephen Hawking

        Please improve your knowledge and empower yourself.. wag lang mag pa uto…


      • GKLer

        I wrote 15 points on the Flood below in one post, all I got from you is “delusional”.  You didn’t answer me, on who created Nature, since Nature by itself is complex – the very opposite of the universe’s increasing entropy.

        Like I said, you have no talent for discourse, so I know I will just waste my time with you.  You are not capable of holding an intelligent discussion with me.Have a nice life.  Good bye.

      • tekateka

        Everything you mentioned is irrelevant to how the universe was created… Just like the RYB in prime colors.. combine them and that is exactly how the cosmic cookbook started.

      • jin2012

        Flood -> Noah -> Genesis bible account -> how the world as we know it was created. 

        All related.

      • jane

        those accounts by the writers were written hundreds of years after the supposed existence of Jesus. parang election lang- ang daming dagdag bawas na nangyari. you never know if what happened was the truth or embellishments lang. besides, if Jesus was already sikat in his time even up to the crucifiction– bakit walang actual/official references to him sa Roman empire records. Just asking.

      • GKLer

        Please take the time to know what you are talking about.

        Josephus c.37 – 100 AD – Court historian to Roman Emperor Vespesian (69-79AD)

        Thallus – wrote about the execution of Jesus 20 years after it happened.

        Tacitus – 56-117AD

        None of the three are biblical writers.  They are independent historians.

        You see, there are at least 3 writers, who were alive during the time of Christ.  First hand account = easy to get.

  • Alim A

    who is satan should be the answer to your question if Jesus existed or not.

    • tekateka

      Satan is FAKE pang blackmail/panakot ng simbahan para macontrol ang masa.. ang di sumunod.. bitay at sunog… mga murderer yan…

  • Nick_Fury

     “As I lay for some minutes on the floor, Apo Ina started singing a
    message, something about my mission. Her singing was effortless and
    inspired, and I know the words were directed to me.
    “Shortly afterward, my right hand slowly began moving up and my fingers
    formed a mudra or posture of the hand of the resurrected Christ, then it
    gave a blessing to the people present. My left hand began to move too
    and both hands formed a position as though receiving something. Both my
    palms were up. Then both hands closed and opened again.
      You have a mission alright, a mission to dupe people for money, and the motioning of your hands shows your hands are an indication how greedy you have become actually reaching out for the wallets of the people. Shame on you for considering and presenting yourself as Jesus Christ. What a fantastic tale from a liar and a BS artist.

    • Nick_Fury

       If you don’t believe in Jesus Christ existence why do you present yourself as Jesus then? If you believe more in Mary Magdalene and the so called Gnostic Gospel crap then why did you attest and said yourself that Jesus Christ and Mary Magdalene have a real relationship? the answer is simple you are nothing but a liar and a BS artist.

  • aldelpor

    purely evil !

  • opinyonlangpo

    Thats a good one. I have also seen people who thinks they are superman.

  • InterPoll

    Jesus Christ does not possess people. This is a false christ you’ve encountered. Statues and graven images are incompatible with the Lord God’s commandment:

    “You shall not make for yourself any carved image, or any likeness of anything that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth; you shall not bow down to them nor serve them. For I, the Lord your God, am a jealous God, visiting the iniquity of the fathers on the children to the third and fourth generations of those who hate me, but showing mercy to thousands, to those who love Me and keep My commandments.”


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