Actress and vlogger Chesca Garcia-Kramer recounted her days of stubbornness and is glad that she did change her ways.

“By chance, last night, I was able to see and go through some of my old work. It brought back so many memories — but, if there was one thing that kept lingering on my mind while I was going through pictures and videos was how stubborn I was during those days,” she via her Instagram page yesterday, March 8.

“I did things the way I wanted to do them even if deep inside I knew I was compromising myself. I didn’t want to admit I needed guidance, I refused to be taught and I only wanted to listen to myself,” she admitted. “I avoided showing my vulnerable side because I saw it as a sign of weakness. I also never conveyed my true feelings because I always wanted to give a tough front.”

But she was proven wrong as her fears limited her, leading her to miss a lot of opportunities, because she “did not want to be judged.” She admitted that it took her so long to get to her senses, with only God knowing how troubled she was.

But those were her years of growing pains, and now she’s glad that she’s way past all that, having been able to overcome her insecurities.

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“Before going to bed last night I couldn’t help but thank the Lord for his unending grace in my life. For all the chances that he continues to give me. For his perpetual love and patience,” she shared. “For his mercy, for never giving up on me. He knew I would get here someday I just needed to trust and obey him.”

She now believes that all the missed opportunities taught her about humility and obedience.

“The biggest blessing I got from my years of spiritual stretching and discipline is finding God in the most uncomfortable time of my life,” she said, adding that “God is always at work but are we willing to surrender to him[?] It’s never too late.” JB

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