By Coleen Ramos. Illustrations by Armaine Yapyuco

K-Pop had taken over the Philippines long before Jun-Pyo and Jan-Di hit the small screen. Their music is infectious, catchy and compelling, despite being incomprehensible. Their music videos are bursting with aesthetic charisma incomparable to that of Western or local music, and you just wish that we’d exert the same production effort. And the artists? Well, we all know cosmetology is a common practice in South Korea, but they are all still so beautiful and talented and funny and cute and that was just me fangirling as opposed to those who worship them day and night.

It’s not easy being a K-Pop fan; more so if you’re an international one. Ordering albums online with expensive shipping costs, restricted access to fan cafes and sites, and the torture of watching newly uploaded videos without subtitles are just some of the things international fans go through on a regular basis. Don’t even get me started on the fan wars.

Here are just some of the struggles we get to deal with every day.

1. Our never full/always empty wallet

Another mini-album was just announced, then five months later a repackaged album was just released followed by a world tour and lucky for you, your country is included! You’ll need to prepare your memorabilia in case there’ll be a fan meeting and the chance of having everything signed, then of course there are also the light sticks for the concert and the official merchandise that’ll financially help your artist/group. You’ll definitely hit rock bottom once the ticket prices come out. Let the begging begin.

2. Where are the English subtitles and translations?

Let’s face it, learning Korean will take up a ridiculously huge amount of time from our fangirling/fanboying schedule. Some just don’t have the time for it (unless your devotion transcends your other necessities). We may be a dedicated stan, believing we know everything and anything about our artist and yet the detachment is so vast, culturally, physically, emotionally and verbally. Why you do this, oppa?

3. The different time zones

They’ll be having a live broadcast for their comeback performance! Oh wait, it already started. *cries a lot*

4. World tour vs. Chosen Countries Where We Know We’re Really Popular tour

They will be having a world tour, they said. They love international fans, they said. They love us, they said. How many more tweets, retweets, likes and shares will it take for them to have a freaking concert here already? *cries a lot more*

5. No fan meetings, no hugs

We’ve seen those fans who get to meet their idols mere inches from their existence. They get to have at least a minute of their time, chatting, laughing and basically communicating with them personally while international fans get to watch videos of them doing all of that and go full-on beast mode. Jealousy is a bitch.

6. No access to fan cafes

I tried it once, I couldn’t even find the sign up button. Next thing I knew the site is requesting for my Korean social security number. Like I have one. *flips table*

7. Restricted media

Bet you didn’t expect the words “Sorry, this content is blocked from your country” to pop up, did you?

8. Can’t participate in fan chants

Fighting, international fans. Fighting.

9. This thing called shipping costs

Almost a thousand pesos for their new album? That’s okay, at least there’s a free poster included! *adds to cart* 500 pesos for the shipping costs? *removes from cart*

10. They’re in Korea and you’re somewhere far, far away from them

This says it all.

We may forever be stuck in #TeamBahay mode, but we do our best to support our favorite K-Pop groups and artists. As long as there’s a 1080p option on the YouTube settings, we’ll endure.

Which of these struggles do you relate to? (Or do you relate to all of them?)