Billie Eilish is this year’s big winner at the Grammy Awards, bagging all four major nods: Best New Artist, Song of the Year, Album of the Year, and Record of the Year. It’s probably a whirlwind of emotions right now for the 18-year old, one of the youngest to get Best New Artist. It was so overwhelming that before she bagged Album of the Year for “When We Sleep, Where Do We Go?”, Billie didn’t even want to win it anymore.

Spot the “bad guy” singer as says, “Please don’t be me. Please” seconds before her name was called out as the winner. Billie Eilish beat out Bon Iver, Lana Del Rey, Ariana Grande, Lil Nas X, H.E.R, and Vampire Weekend for the accolade.

If you missed it, here it is again.

“Please don’t be me. Please.”

Billie Eilish being genuinely disgusted by her own success is one of the most hilarious things I’ve ever seen at a major awards show. #Grammys pic.twitter.com/A7iSCVta2N

— Joey Nolfi (@joeynolfi) January 27, 2020

Billie’s disbelief and denial continued as she shushed the crowd cheering for her. In her acceptance speech, she said, “Can I just say that Ariana Grande deserves this?” Looking at the “7 Rings” songstress, Billie went on, “‘ thank u, next'” got me through some shit.”

Billie has been open about her struggle with dealing with fame. When she first started, she was even hesitant to call her supporters “fans.” Listen to her talk about it to ‘Vanity Fair‘ below.

You know that feeling when the teacher is calling out names for recitation, and you wish you don’t get called? Low-key that may be the closest emotion have so we can empathize with Billie.

Photo courtesy of Agence France-Presse